Chosen…

Recently my head has been captivated by this idea that we are chosen.

The idea that you are placed exactly where you are meant to be. When you are moving, you are meant to be moving. When you are still, you are meant to be still. When you are pondering, wondering, imagining of whether to stay or go, your mind is fine for questioning the possibilities. {Align your heart with the path you intend to follow.} Whether the experience or the stage of life is good or bad you are learning something, growing stronger, and becoming even more of the someone you were created to be.

I trust in this because I have experienced and seen that it is true. If you think you aren’t where you are supposed to be your eyes are shut, and I am guessing that you are looking for what is wrong instead of what this event or experience is going to do in your life. How it will impact you. Seeking to understand, and a little optimism can go a long way.

For years people have been telling me that I need to get out and not play it safe. While their advice may have been valid, they never asked why I was staying in the first place. The didn’t seek to understand what was happening in my heart. Instead they told me the reason I felt stuck was because I never left. There is a lot that we won’t understand until later in life, when we can look back and see that God really, truly did have a plan and never let us fall by the wayside.

{You choose whether you follow, trust and pursue. He is always after your heart. He begs for it. Psalms 27:8}

I was chosen to be where I was for my first two years of college. God had intention and reason behind it. It was most definitely beautiful. Messy but beautiful. I am just understanding why.

Working in ministry for two years has opened my eyes to so much about leadership, the mission and the vision of a church, it has given me a community and family, and it has given me perspective and much joy. My family attended church for the first time in years this past August and there have been many doors opened for conversation. {Don’t give up on salvation.} I have had the opportunity to be a light to them while living at home and working on our relationships.

Working for a dance studio the past two years and learning about classroom management, how to fuel your own creative fire, choreographic processes, and being a part of that community has also greatly impacted my life and my heart.

I have had the opportunity to go to school the past two years to figure out what I want to do. While I’m still not really sure what that is, I am getting a quality education and  experiencing some trial and error as I work towards my degree.

{Look, I’m already half way there.}

By no means has everything been perfect and happy all the time, but I don’t doubt I was supposed to be here doing all of the things I have done and continue to do. I don’t doubt I was chosen to be here. I don’t think it was at all a mistake because my heart was seeking purpose and meaning as that has been behind everything I have done all along.

Now, I am chosen to be somewhere else and a new chapter is beginning. When I applied for BigStuf I thought I was going to be ok if I didn’t end up getting accepted. Although if I got it, I told myself I would go because I knew that would be a major push from God. I had no hesitation. While I am already not looking forward to the day I have to come home, I know that God is going to work in enormous ways this summer. Ways that I can’t predict. I don’t know how I will be broken, fixed, humbled, over joyed, amazed, and blessed. I do know I am walking hand in hand with my Comforter and that if I trust Him, knowing he has chosen me as a precious child, He will work wonders for me and anyone else that chases after His heart as He has chased after ours…

My point is, we have the ultimate Leader and we choose to take the hand. We choose to go down the path of trust and pursuit rather than ignorance and destruction. If your heart is aligned, you know that you are where you need to be for this moment, maybe the next ten thousand moments. If your heart is aligned, you know that you will get where you need to go. If you are off of your center, I hope you will take a leap of faith and fight a fight worth fighting for. I hope you take that risk to trust and see how God will work in and through your life if you let Him.

Whether you walk on your own two feet or you need to be carried, you will get where you are chosen to be.

You saw me before I was born. Every day of my life was recorded in your book. Every moment was laid out before a single day had passed.

Psalms 139:16

Search me, Lord, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. Point out anything in me that offends you, and lead me along the path of everlasting life.

Psalms 139: 23-24